November 2011
Previously: MYRAZORISMYBESTFRIEND
Hey guys (: It’s Ashley. I hope you haven’t forgotten about me.
I took a break awhile ago from this tumblr, but I’m back now, only I have a new blog: FAKESMILESARENTFOREVER.TUMBLR.COM
So you should follow it :) I’m still offering advise and a helping hand for those who want it <3 I miss you all, so come say hi and message me especially if we’ve talked...
August 2011
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I feel like such an awful person. I can’t tell you all how sorry I am for not being on here. I’ve told you all I would start posting regularly again soon- countless times, but I never really do. I know I’ve said this before, but it’s just, this blog was never supposed to turn into something like this. I’m glad it did, and I’m glad I could...
June 2011
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howcouldyoudothistoher asked: I just wanted to let you know that I think you're my new favourite blog ever and the writing you have made me tear up and cry a little.
I think you're an amazing person and it's people like you that sometimes make this heavy weight feel that little bit lighter, thank you. <3
You're beautiful
I think you're an amazing person and it's people like you that sometimes make this heavy weight feel that little bit lighter, thank you. <3
You're beautiful
Anonymous asked: 9 days until my birthday
9 days until the birthday present I've wanted for so long.
9 days until my death.
9 days until the birthday present I've wanted for so long.
9 days until my death.
Anonymous asked: I just cut myself.
it was really bad.
how long to wide cuts take to heal?
it was really bad.
how long to wide cuts take to heal?
howcouldyoudothistoher asked: do you know where I can buy one of those 'stay positive' hoodies?
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Non-important rant that I don't really expect...
“If anything happens to me, its your fault.”
“I’m bleeding because of you.”
“I have pictures you don’t even know about and i’ll send them to everyone.”
“You should know if I’m dead tomorrow, it’s because of you.”
“I thought you were a good person.”
“You’re so selfish ashley.”
...
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Rant.
i cant do this anymore. You cant do this to me. you cant put all of this pressure and responsibility into my hands and expect me to just take care of you and make all your problems go away.
i just cant believe you said those things to me.
I cant believe you threatened me like that.
I cant believe you blamed me for everything.
I just cant believe this. I thought you changed. I thought you were...
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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
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Just so tired. Just so angry. All The Time.
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Anonymous asked: I'm really sorry
Do you ever feel bad when you feel like dying, so you talk to someone and you can sort of tell that you're bothering them, and that they deal with their own shit and don't need yours too?
Do you ever feel bad when you feel like dying, so you talk to someone and you can sort of tell that you're bothering them, and that they deal with their own shit and don't need yours too?
woah-its-katiee-deactivated2011 asked: Ok so yesterday i found out that one of my bestfriend cuts herself and she has biopolar depression ,i really want to help her,she says she goes to therapy,what should i do?
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This all just really fucking sucks.
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Thank you to everyone who sent me a birthday message <3 They all made me so damn happy :] -Sorry I’m a little late in response. But I’m still thankful for all of them <3
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GUIISSSSSEE
It’s my birthday in an hour and a half <3
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Anonymous asked: I have met lovely people on tumblr. We're all going through so much shit that it's nice just to have each other
so when posts like this http://lildott.tumblr.com/post/6492965441
come up on the tumblr (a place I thought I was safe). It hurts. It's horrible actually.
Anyways, I just wanted to share with you all that we're not all like this and that I <3...
so when posts like this http://lildott.tumblr.com/post/6492965441
come up on the tumblr (a place I thought I was safe). It hurts. It's horrible actually.
Anyways, I just wanted to share with you all that we're not all like this and that I <3...
wearedifferentbutsomewhatsimilar asked: i went a month without cutting.
just thought you should know..
just thought you should know..
Anonymous asked: can i talk to you?
Anonymous asked: what are some good movies about self harm?
blackballoon15 asked: I've found this video randomly and innmediatley think of you. Watch it hun, wish you're ok. I love you so much <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWJTDG1SWC8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWJTDG1SWC8
destroying-herself-deactivated2 asked: http://myrazorismybestfriend.tumblr.com/post/6255555905/my-cat-is-freakishly-obsessed-with-donuts
i loved this video so much :P
i loved this video so much :P
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Anonymous asked: I don't like being where I am anymore. Everyday it seems like I am more of a bother to the people in my life than I am doing them any good. My parents think I am disgusting, they have told me, I'm getting in the way of my friends relationship too. Everything I do I can't feel. I am really done walking around like a shell, no one wants me around. I just don't know what to do...
Anonymous asked: Would you be able to give me some advice if it isn't entirely based around my self-harm? :/ sorry if i'm asking the obvious, i just want to make sure? xxxx
Anonymous asked: I had gone 3 months without cutting but two days ago I had an anxiety attack. I've cut everyday for the past three days and I hate to admit it, but I've missed the sting so very, very much. I don't want to stop this time.
Anonymous asked: you're beautiful. and i know you may not have friends right now, but do you know how many people from here would LOVE to be your friend? youre such a sweetheart. you inspire me. you give me hope every day.
Anonymous asked: good bye
Anonymous asked: please help me.
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Anonymous asked: I really need to stop cutting, but each time the cuts fade or I can't feel then I want to do it again to make the pain go away
fearful-fearless asked: i don't know if youu remember me, but i've wrote in your ask before.
i got myself help though! :) i was struggling with bulimia as well as self-harm, and depression. i was diagnosed with bipolar depression.
but i've honestly never been happier.<3
i got myself help though! :) i was struggling with bulimia as well as self-harm, and depression. i was diagnosed with bipolar depression.
but i've honestly never been happier.<3
Anonymous asked: YOU are incredibly brave, and have now become one of my role models. <3
I just saw your secrets video and I think you're amazing. ♥
I just saw your secrets video and I think you're amazing. ♥
Short version triggering story...
Hey. My name’s Samadhi & I’m 15. I need to get all of this out of me, because if I don’t it will only destroy me more than it has already…
My suffer starts since I was born. I was the typical little wierd girl that played alone & had no friends. It has always been like that. In sixth grade, my mom put me into a new school, let’s just say I wasn’t so...
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Self Harm. →
anonymouseyes:
Before you self harm in any way, you should probably know what you’re getting into. Before you make that cut, please keep in mind that you will find the pain release and blood strangely addictive. You may think to yourself that you’ll be able to control it, that you won’t let it get out of hand. You may think that you can just stick to a few small, shallow cuts here and there...
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I can't tell if I can see people for who they...
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I just feel like I can’t do anything right. When did my mind get so messed up? Why am I such a bad person.
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Help Hotlines:
slitwristsandbrokenhearts:
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Anonymous asked: do you follow people?
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destroying-herself-deactivated2 asked: I know you're hurting right now. I know you're in so much pain that you just can't take it anymore. You just want to give up. I know how you look in the mirror and hate what you see. I know that feeling of disgust you get when you think of yourself and your life. I know what it's like to wake up in the morning, wishing you hadn't. I know you don't wanna be here...
Anonymous asked: how do you usually make yourself feel better when everything seems to be going wrong?