“If anything happens to me, its your fault.”

“I’m bleeding because of you.”

“I have pictures you don’t even know about and i’ll send them to everyone.”

“You should know if I’m dead tomorrow, it’s because of you.”

“I thought you were a good person.”

“You’re so selfish ashley.”

“I’m going to send you a picture of the cuts you made me do every half hour you don’t text back.”

“Fuck off, what the fuck is your problem?”

These are not things a boyfriend should say to their girlfriend. I hate you. I hate you for blaming everything on me. I hate you for tricking me into tinking you changed. I hate you for expecting me to give you a third chance. I hate you for letting me think I could trust you. I hate you for assuming I’m cheating on you because i didn’t text back after 7 minutes. I hate you for doing this to me, for holding my past against me, for blaming me for your problems. I told you we weren’t healthy together because only one of us actully wants to get better and I cant carry around your weight all the time. I hate you for making me feel this way. 

I hate that I actually believed you, again.

I cant believe you said those things to me. Before I met you, I always thought that I never knew love till you came into my life. But it turns out, it was hate I never knew.

I was doing so well. I had my blog, my journal, my cat and summer. But now, you’ve made me hate myself even more than I hate you. You’ve made me want to give up. And I don’t know where to go from here..