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I feel like such an awful person. I can’t tell you all how sorry I am for not being on here. I’ve told you all I would start posting regularly again soon- countless times, but I never really do. I know I’ve said this before, but it’s just, this blog was never supposed to turn into something like this. I’m glad it did, and I’m glad I could help so many people, and they could help me, and I met so many amazing people, but I’m just not this kind of girl. I’m so unbelievably shy, and quiet, and I rarely speak my mind. Never in my life have I had an opportunity like this, to be so open with people. And I gotta tell you, it’s really scary. Because I’m just a normal girl really. That girl you see in school, the one that has no friends, never talks, and almost seems kind of nerdy, yeah that’s me. I’m not used to this. Which is a part of why I’ve been away for so long. I know I should have told you all this a long time ago, but I just need a break. From everything. And I can’t really do that, while running this blog. I don’t know how much longer I’ll be gone, but I promise you I’ll come back. I might be changing my URL shortly too, because my anxiety and paranoia are off the roof. I’m sorry to anyone I may have worried, because I was gone so long. I’m safe. And I’ll do my best to come back soon. I’ve missed you all so much. But you have to understand, I dedicated 6 months of my life to this blog prior to this break. I had no friends, and I never went outside. Tumblr was my only friend. And I don’t necessarily mean that as a bad thing, because I love you all so indrecibly much, but it’s just, I’m not used to this. It’s hard for me to give so much advise, and not even be able to take my own. I’m so so so sorry to everyone that sent me an ask, that I wont be able to reply to it. Honestly, I’m tearing up right now because I’m so sorry. You put your faith in my and I let you down. But, this is just something I have to do for awhile. I need to be selfish, and take risks, and do my best to enjoy life. Otherwise, I’m afraid I may not make it. I’m sorry to anyone this hurts. But I love you all so insanely much. I love you more than I love myself. And this blog has changed not only me, but the way I look at things. Now, I have the courage to stand up to people about certain subjects. I’m living more optimistically. There are so many things this blog has done for me, and I will NEVER forget them. The day I turn eighteen, I plan to get a tattoo as a reminder for all that you’ve done for me. Thank you all so much <3 (‘:

I’m sorry I can’t be there for you now, but I know there are so many others who will be. There are blogs like mine, located to the left of my page there’s a link you can check out. And also, if anyone read this and if you are here to listen and/or give advise to people, please, PLEASE, comment on this post saying so, or like the other link on my page. I want all of my followers to know that I still care about you unbelievably, and I will be thinking about you everyday. There are still plenty of people you can trust on here though, and I hope you can find comfort in them and their blogs <3

Love always,

Ashley.